ape2 hal.. layan dulu ni.
so the other day, aku pergi jumpa kaunselor sebab i was so stress with my life XD it was more stressful after the meeting like WTH SERIOUSLYYY???!!!! HAHAHA. aku pergi tu sebab yela. stress sampai tak dapat nak fokus untuk buat kerja pe semua because you know, am in my final year so i need to write up a thesis, still attending class and need to go thru test quizzes and all. kalau aku tak dapat nak study sebab stress i should seek for solution la kan? by that, aku refer la pada orang profesional dalam kes ni kononnya kaunselor.
aku pernahlah write up an email masa cuti sebab stress lepas tu they called me and asked me what should i do like…. seriously lah aku yang kena tahu? i mean, i seek for your help yet you asked me what i should do? blerghhhh… so i was like ignore the phone call sebab sumpah sakit hati wei.
then, aku pergi la kan konon baik ni pergi pusat kaunseling pastu i was crying my heart out and spill. well, aku spill sikit2 jela sebab based on ‘her’ (the counselor) respond, she didnt actually respond the way she should, in my opinionlah. i mean, i go there spilling my family problems but she wayyyyyyy to concern about my disability? in case you guys miss it, i have been on wheelchair for the past year (since i was caught on fever for a week long). i was like, hello… can you help me about my problem?? not my disability?? because i was way okay about my disability. i have been on wheelchair for 5 years for godsake and i knew what is okay for me or what is not okay and there she goes like, you should go exercise, swimming, go for massage blablabla. WHAT THE HELL MANNNNNNN!!!
i went back to hostel still crying. my face became so bloated and my eyes are so sore because i was crying for 4 hours straight oh god. i looked so ugly on that day i wished i never go to pusat kaunseling. HAHAHA anyway, in conclusion i couldnt find any solution from her? so i told my supervisor everything and she was like okay. but still i need to struggle to finish up my thesis ohhh a week left~~
be sad for a while and be happy again after.
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