.27 and counting.

Assalamualaikum wbt

hello people. long time no see *again* anyway,, i want to share what i did during my birthday this year. well, as you all know [please pretend you even when you dont], i’m usually dont join big event especially if the event is outside johor. thank god, last weekend was a special one.

I went for an event by @btsforcharity. they organised an event at  ARTCUBE GALLERY, KUALA LUMPUR last weekend, #LUSTRUMSCENE. its an account for bts fans but they’re more on doing charity event and stuffs. long story short, yupp this event.

so, the journey started after subuh. we [me and bro] dropped my mum at AYER KEROH, MELAKA. Then moved to KL. I arrived there around 10.50-ish. Yuna picked me up. then we lepak2 at McD. Met Jia and B, superfun! I met Jia before at Shah Alam. Met Angel too! Met KakSeul, Bee~ ahhh I met Nicola there!!!! she came down to say hi. anddd I met Ainur, she brought me cake! met another Jia with her sister.

they sang me birthday song at McD lol it was embarrassing but fun hahaha because suddenly there’s an aunt who came to our table and asked which one of you celebrate their birthday then she said one of her son is having a birthday too and we end up singing birthday song to him too. cute >,<

then i think around 12 something only we went to see the exhibition hahaha and of course meeting with lots of other ARMYs too! let me try to list it down. hahaha. I met Feefa, Abby, Z le brat, Kina, Anyara, Beth!!!!,  kak tea, wonnie, iffah, Adel, Mimi. Yun and Angel are the one who push me around. i met kak Manja too!!! wish can stay longer to talk to her.

I’m like super thankful to all of them because they seriously so much fun!!! we talked, gossiped, and took lots of photos but of course not in my phone. I received  another 2 cakes ; 1 from kak seul and another 1 from beth and angel. they’re such a sweetheart. so in total 3 cakes.

ahh Z ended up going back with me because hahahahahaha she can 😛 after the event we met adik at cyberjaya, gave her nectar and amil gave her some money lewls arrived home by 11 pm and caught up with some issues on my account but worry not, i’m totally fine with it hahaha so thankful for ‘mute’ function in twitter.

oh yaaa, before i end this post, i actually wanna say THOUSANDS OF THANKS to my buddies [YUN, ANGEL, JIA, BETH] for entertaining me there, pushed me around the checkpoints in the exhibition, to KakSeul and Ainur for giving me cakes for my birthday [Angel and Beth too!] and to KakSeul for taking lots of photos for me.

this is like my first time joining an event in a fandom and its on my birthday and seriously so thankful to all of them. may god repay you guys good things! its like meeting friends who knew you in real life when you actually knew them from internet. first time is like thousands time already because never feel any gap in the friendship. i might end up crying lol i reallly3x love them so much oh god please get them under your protection!

lastly, thank you for all the birthday wishes [hi AG! love you! <3] from my friends and followers in my fan account and yeahh basically everyone who wishes me. may good things happen to you too! enjoy the pictures.

from AINUR



ps: thank god not so many people in the foodcourt. its hahahaha…. but thanks guys. i really3 love you guys. i had so much fun on my birthday this year! i might missed some names so, sorry!

.#WIR ; Demian.

Assalamualaikum wbt…

hi hello there…

on the previous post, I’ve been talking /writing about how i want to write more after I’ve finished my studies. so hereeeeeee I am. hehe ;D [awkward…..]. anyway, i came out with a hashtag for this kind of post. #WIR which mean, What I Read. basically, i will post a book/novel/magazine [? as if i read one] review? i dont know.. maybe a review but am not that qualified [am no body just a man who loves to read] or maybe what i thought after reading book/novel and what the book/novel is all about so when you read my post you might gain interest to read it? haha.

recently, BTS [my ultimate kpop group – for now – hopefully for forever] release 7 short films entitled WINGS [do check them out at youtube/ vapp. being an avid fangirl of BTS,  I’m interested to read the english literature novel [?] that they used to inspire their short films. so, I’ve been searching for the book online and came to this link.  want to know how we [armys – fans of bts] knew about the book? well, on the 1st few seconds of the short films, namjoon will recite few sentences from the book so, thats how we know. simple! hahaha.

i dont know how people gain deep understanding about the book [maybe because i wasnt not a psychology student? ] so i will explain what i understand only. hahaha. because if you scroll down on comment section for the short films you will see why i write that. hehehe.


here’s one of the book cover [there’s so many book cover for this book as it was published in year 1919.] it was a seriously long time ago. this book gained a lot of interest as at first it was being published under the name of Sinclair as the author but later on change to Hesse. Hesse is the real writer while Sinclair is the name of the main character in the book [so.. it caused such a chaos during that time – from what i read]. for me, the book is a simple english literature book because the words are straightforward. like you know how certain english literature books have a high metaphor and all? this book is easy to understand, simply said. hehe ;D

so Demian is about a boy, named Emil Sinclair. at first, he talked about how the world is separated to two different world. the good and the bad and he stated what kind of good and bad world in his life. conflict [?] started when he lied to his friends because he wants to be acknowledge [everyone does this when you’re kid – dont lie to me ;P]. then, from that accident,  he kinda being haunted by his inner self about being a bad guy [ like you knowww, we shouldnt lie and all that kind of stuff because its bad and all that…] because for him, his family [the one close to him represent a good world]. he then been chased [?] by a friend because he lied [kira macam kantoilaaaaa] and he met someone [in this case, another boy named Demian] who save  him from being bullied. when he reach teenager, he went to a boarding school and being separated from Demian, he developed a feeling of longing of Demian. so he started painting and sent it to Demian. he also met with Jacob and Pistorius. after a few years, they met again and he went to Demian house and fall in love with Damien’s mum [Eva]???. this story ends when Sinclair had to go for services during World War I.

okay, i knew some might be confused with this but i think what the writer wants to tell us, the reader, is how someone can greatly influence our self? so we must make a right choice in life? like in this book, how Demian being able to be great influence in Sinclair’s life. they talked to each other about Abel and Cain [ if you’re a muslim, you will feel familiar about this story – Habil & Qabil – Anak2 Nabi Adam AS] where Cain is shown as someone who is strong because he’s able to kill his brother, Abel as a weak person and about the God of Abraxas [ a god who mixed between good and bad]. Sinclair found similarities between Demian and Pistorious in talking about their believes [ abel & cain, god of Abraxas]. basically, this book is about Sinclair and his inner self conflicts of wanting to be a good person but then being influenced that being a bad person is okay and so.

overall, this book is great [for me], easy to understand the word [except the inner thought of the event of talking about our beliefs] and good. if you wants to read it, go ahead and share with me what you thought about it. if you read from the link i’ve given you on the early passage, you will realized that it only contains 8 chapters and at that link, you can actually listen to the book? woot woot ;O

i like how it makes me feel like am doing KUMON all over again. [i’ve been doing kumon for 2 years before i stopped because i want to focus on SPM] the reading, listening and understanding the context. huhuhu. so i guess thats all? [ i feel like this is a bad review/thoughts. hahaha. never mind. i can always improve it!] and great thanks to BTS for making me read again after like few years. LOL [ i still contemplating whether i should get a physical book of Demian or not because the price is RM60]. anyway, i will be back with more interesting [hopefully] book/novel/anything in the future.

till then, take care!


ps : i’ve been thinking to share my kpop collections later on but we will seeeeee~~~

.tell me something i dont know.

assalamualaikum wbt

ape2 hal.. layan dulu ni.

so the other day, aku pergi jumpa kaunselor sebab i was so stress with my life XD it was more stressful after the meeting like WTH SERIOUSLYYY???!!!! HAHAHA. aku pergi tu sebab yela. stress sampai tak dapat nak fokus untuk buat kerja pe semua because you know, am in my final year so i need to write up a thesis, still attending class and need to go thru test quizzes and all. kalau aku tak dapat nak study sebab stress i should seek for solution la kan? by that, aku refer la pada orang profesional dalam kes ni kononnya kaunselor.

aku pernahlah write up an email masa cuti sebab stress lepas tu they called me and asked me what should i do like…. seriously lah aku yang kena tahu? i mean, i seek for your help yet you asked me what i should do? blerghhhh… so i was like ignore the phone call sebab sumpah sakit hati wei.

then, aku pergi la kan konon baik ni pergi pusat kaunseling pastu i was crying my heart out and spill. well, aku spill sikit2 jela sebab based on  ‘her’ (the counselor) respond, she didnt actually respond the way she should, in my opinionlah. i mean, i go there spilling my family problems but she wayyyyyyy to concern about my disability? in case you guys miss it, i have been on wheelchair for the past year (since i was caught on fever for a week long). i was like, hello… can you help me about my problem?? not my disability?? because i was way okay about my disability. i have been on wheelchair for 5 years for godsake and i knew what is okay for me or what is not okay and there she goes like, you should go exercise, swimming, go for massage blablabla. WHAT THE HELL MANNNNNNN!!!

i went back to hostel still crying. my face became so bloated and my eyes are so sore because i was crying for 4 hours straight oh god. i looked so ugly on that day i wished i never go to pusat kaunseling. HAHAHA anyway, in conclusion i couldnt find any solution from her? so i told my supervisor everything and she was like okay. but still i need to struggle to finish up my thesis ohhh a week left~~

till then,

be sad for a while and be happy again after.



.half way thru.

assalamualaikum wbt

hello and hi everyone. its me! farhah. i knew i have been on hiatus (cewahhh) for a longgggggg time but believe me am still remember this blog (uhuks uhuks). anyway,,, i am left with another a month plus half a month before i finish my degree life. it was so tough that i nearly give up. ohh god.. the temptation to delay my fyp is so big but i figure it out that i should really keep my work done. okay, apa aku membebel ni.

apa2 pon, i will be free sebelum june ends. ohhh tak sabarnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. hopefully i pass thru this period successfully. my 1st paper is on 5th june and last paper is on 9th june and my good friend from matriculation get married on 4th june and i wanna go but i will be very busy on that week with my final year project presentation i wanna cryyyyyyy so bad.

by the wayyyy, my favorite kpop group is coming back this may!!!! yeah… the mv teaser is so lit i nearly died. hahahaha. so exaggerating here’s the proof. i hope everyone watch it fall in love with them like they are so good you are missing something in your life if you dont stan them 😛

last but not least, please pray for my safety and my final year project. thank you! and enjoyyyyyy~~~

.mid sem break.

Assalamualaikum wbt

pejam celik pejam celik dah mid sem breakkk wei. tinggal lagi dalam 7 minggu camtu sebelum sem 1 sesi 2015|2016 habis. perghh pergh pergh…begitu pantas masa berlalu. hahaha.. drama sungguh. anyway, aku tak start sketching lagi. insyallah cuti ni sketch, naik cuti midsem break ni, aku run ke analyse ke. huwaaaaaaaaaaaa…takut sangat tak dapat result T_T mohon didoakan. pastu baru teringat nak kena buat logbook. haramj satu hape pon aku tak buat lagi. bengong boleh tahan wei. naik cuti kena present pulopp tu. arghhhh… *tarik rambut* by the way,nama pon cuti mid sem kan. ape chill cerita pasal study.. hahahaha. tapi an.. aku berniat nak siapkn assignment sebelum cuti deepavali which is today and tomorrow. and.. yeah…hopefully…

aku takdelah addict sangat dah dengan k-drama sekarang ni sebab internet kat kolej tak memberangsangkan..and.. duduk asrama ann..tak balik so nak stream tu malas. aku bukan jenis yang suka men-download2 ni. jadinya harap kat orang jugakla. cumanyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa……baru2 ni aku ade tengok 1 drama, THE VILLAGE : ACHIHARA ‘S SECRET. lebih kurang gini la tajuknya. ade MOON GEUN YOUNG dgn SUNGJAE BTOB. bestttttttttttt sangat. masuk minggu ni dah EPISOD 10. ada lagi 6 episod kot.

kenapa best…sebab citer ni lain dari lain. tak ade mushy2 macam most k-drama tapi penyiasatan. tengok setiap episod tu macam baca novel satu2 chapter. citer ni pasal apa… pasal…seorang adik ni…dia nak cari akak dia. diorang terpisah masa kecil selepas family diorang kemalangan yang mana mak dengan ayah diorang mati..adik dia ni…nenek dia ambil bawak pegi kanada..akak dia pulak kena tinggal dekat korea sebab akak dia ni sebenarnya anak angkat.kira bukan sister-in-blood la. pastu lepas 20 tahun camtu..adik dia ni balik korea and dapat mengajar kat satu kampung ni, kampung achihara. masa 1st week, adik dia ade kejar student nak pergi merokok kat hutan, sat g adik dia terjatuh and terjumpa rangka mayat. mayat tu dah 2 tahun T_T maka bermulalah misteri mencari identiti mayat tu… kira kat kampung tu ade 2 kelompok, 1 yang nak adik dia ni tahu kebenaran, 1 lagi yang taknak adik dia tahu kebenaran sebab si adik ni ada kaitan dengan mayat tu. so far memang takdela mushy2 ni. ade baca kat 1 forum ni pun, diorang ckp PD (producer) cakap drama ni takde love line. sesape rasa macam takde ke citer2 best nak tengok, bolehlah tengok THE VILLAGE : ACHIHARA’S SECRET. besttttttttt!

semalam ade MELON MUSIC AWARDS 2015. BANGTAN (BTS) my current favorite group won BEST DANCE AWARD : MALE GROUP. tapi diorang memang daebak gila dancing kot. tak caya? tengok ah DOPE MV diorang. dahlah 360 degree camera pastu laju nak mati dancenye tapi sedih gakkkk semalam sebab diorangnya performance 1 lagu je. tapi intro memang gempak gila laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa…. styleeeeeee sangat…kira semalam INTRO + I NEED U *REMIX* best! congratulations BTS!!! hahaha. bajet diorang baca je. okay2..aku letak skali lah video nya. nanti tengok tau. diorang tercalon gak BEST GROUP dengan ARTIST OF THE YEAR utk MAMA 2015 tapi ramai ARMY tak puas hati gak sebab diorang tak tercalon BEST DANCE. Padahal diorang DANCE memang best kot. yela..kalau tak, takkan menang mase MMA kan? hahahaha. ape2 pun, bangga gak la. cewah…

till then, bye!



.final year life.

Assalamualaikum wbt

fuhhhhhhh…dah few weeks naik sem. proposal untuk final year project dah hantar pastu kena betulkan pastu……… susahnya final year project. rasa macam nak quit pon ada. 😦 macamana orang boleh surviveeeeeeee final year???!!! anyway,, aku kan buat pasal computational chem. orang cakap senang. seeennnaaannnggg sangat kau! padahal lagi susah tauuuuuu sebab…software yang kita pakai utk fyp tu tak belajar masa kelas pon. kau bayang ah nak kena pakai benda tak pena belajar. untuk dapatkan result pe smua. dalam masa 2 sem. kalau kau buat experimental, dapat product/result so bolehla argue. buat computer ni, tak dapat result/ data kau nak goreng apeeeeeeeee?!!! harapnya bolehla survive fyp ni.

alhamdulillah dapat cari junior 4-5 orang untuk tolong hantar pergi balik kelas, belikan makan malam, tengahari. memang bersyukur sangat ada orang tolong. diorang tu pon baik2… ketuanya si diana tu. hahaha. budak tu je tak betul sangat. hahahaha. keja nak melawak je. tapi best la. takdela hambar hidup aku kat utm. trololololol. insyallah luas network kenalan. 😛

next 2 weeks, bebudak kelas convo. bestnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! and minggu konvo tu birthday ummi tapi adik tak balik pulak. so,, postpone la kot nak celebrate birthday ummi. ummi mintak kek aiskrim baskin robbin. mwahahahaha.

pasal kesihatan, alhamdulillah selepas almost lebih half a year berubat di muar, aku dah agak kuat sikit berbanding sebelum ni. insyallah, aku target by next year dah boleh jalan macam biasa. right now, boleh jalan short distance tapi bongkok and tangan tak begitu kuat so bila bawak beg laptop dan sebagainya….rasa macam beratnyaaa. tapi ok la. takde nak demam2 lagi. yeay! and bisa2 pun jarang kecuali masa yang jerebu teruk 2 3 minggu lepas sampai 2 3 kali UTM bagi cuti sebab IPU reading sekitar kampus 201-300. aku target bila nak konvo next year dah boleh lariiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. mohon didoakan.

btw, ni pasal my minat, kpop, kalau tak nak baca boleh skip perenggan ni. baru2 ni…aku ada terminat 1 group, BTS. bangtan. ada RAPMON, JIN, SUGA, JHOPE, JIMIN, V, JUNGKOOK. best!!! hahaha. tapi mampu beli pre-loved album je. takde pc masa beli. sedih2. hahahaha. tapi part 2 Hwa Yan Yeon Hwa, HYYH (taktahu eja betul ke tak), aku dah pre-order. diorang cakap nak comeback october 2015 untuk HYYH PART 2 tapi takde lagi. ni dah 17 hb. waeee?!!! bila nak comeback ni??!!! hari2 tunggu pastuuuu hari tu…birthday JIMIN. best gila kot K-ARMYS. diorg siap design bus pe sme pastu bagi rice cake gambar jimin. aku tengok ade fansite bagi basikal boleh lipat2 tu. T_T bestnyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. pastu utk birthday V next month tak pasti diorang nak bagi apa tapi kalau donate sekian2 dapat pc lah kalender la. pastukaaaaaaaaan, sekarang macam musim orang design dolls kpop idol. aku ade follow 1 kedai ni. asyik update pasal infinite punya dolls. pastu ni dah follow bebyk bts fansite…byk gak orang jual dolls. aaaaaaaaaa…motip sangat kalau nak beli. ohhh…yg HYYH part 2 tu nak beli sebab….video prologue tuuuuuuuuuuuuu… jap i bagi kat bawah ni…

yg ni video sebelum bighit potong. yang dah potong bawah ni.pastuuuuuuuuuuuuu… byk gila teori diorang buat…. ni semua based on I NEED U MV. tengoklaaaaaa tengoklaaaaaaa. dah lama takde mv bercorak cerita dalam kpop world. kalau dulu, BIGBANG punya MV selalu dalam bentuk story. kali ni BTS buat dalam bentuk story, memang best ah…

I NEED U MV (15+)


setelah sekian lama, ade pon MV yang berbentuk story. so,, semua ARMYS (fans of BTS) tertunggu tunggu HYYH PART 2. sebab tengok prologue tuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..sedihnyaaaaaaaaa.. antara teori yang ada tu, semua MATI kecuali JIN (kim seok jin). so JIN pegi flashback kenangan. pastu yang memula mati tu V sbb terjun tu tapi………… semua teori ni akan tergantung selagi HYYH Part 2 tak keluar. hahaha. nama english HYYH tu, IN THE MOOD FOR LIFE / THE BEST MOMENT IN LIFE. tazzabaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar.

laju je kalau citer pasal kpop. hahahha. tu jela. nanti kalau rajin, citer lagi. buh-bye!

till then, take care.